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IntellectualPikachu @intellpikachu.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

p.s: the "none of you deserve to have to deal with me" part isn't true at all, everyone that looks and engages is here willingly to support you! and also friends should be there for eachother in hard times, and even if i'm not friends with someone to them, i still try to support them <3

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IntellectualPikachu @intellpikachu.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

Despite the amount of times ive lost people or feel like i have upset someone, i try to hold close to me the people i do have, even if it feels like i have nothing in the moment, i enjoy seeing your journey and im always cheering you on even if you may not know it-!! do stay safe!! 🥺 (4/4.5)

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IntellectualPikachu @intellpikachu.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

You do genuinely seem like one of the nicer (by far) people on here too, and even if ive been quiet i still one day would like to go back to comment on some things-! and i do just want to thank you for the couple extra smiles you do put on my face as well!! (3/4)

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IntellectualPikachu @intellpikachu.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

a lot of these types of words apply to how i feel about myself, and if it just means anything, even if we havent really directly talked, i do care about you, and have thought about trying to be moreso friends in a way (im just being shy honestly 😭) (2/4)

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IntellectualPikachu @intellpikachu.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

i meant to try to reply to this earlier (using my own venty-side account just because it feels more correct here) sorry if going back to reply to it brings anything bad back in any way I've just resonated slightly with this, even if contexts may be different (1/4)

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IntellectualPikachu @intellpikachu.bsky.social · 06/09/2026

oh well, thats life i guess, i havent posted here for a while so month streak over i guess lolol

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IntellectualPikachu @intellpikachu.bsky.social · 06/09/2026

i am genuinely struggling to trust when people say they'd never unfriend me or something or when they say i can just "be myself" because i make one small mistake and i instantly lose them, and then im just sitting there unable to do anything but feel like an idiot

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IntellectualPikachu @intellpikachu.bsky.social · 06/09/2026

heavily for my own emotional stability, i just hate when i have a nearly like 1:1 incident with someone else and i get so many confusing mixed signals and everything feels like its my fault and i lose yet another friend i feel like i dont really matter much to many people

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IntellectualPikachu @intellpikachu.bsky.social · 06/09/2026

but everytime i start to feel like maybe i have more power to maybe come back something just hits me, i let myself get too attached to people easily and such i almost feel like i should just stop trying to make new friends even though i struggle with it so much already and i rely on other people

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IntellectualPikachu @intellpikachu.bsky.social · 06/09/2026

I want to try to be more active (on my main account) again. still, soon, its taking longer to do the stuff i told myself i would do before i do so. im sorry if anyone has somehow been missing whatever things i post or whatnot, i doubt many people do and i doubt even less if anyone will see this

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IntellectualPikachu @intellpikachu.bsky.social · 25/04/2026

the tiniest little things you do probably mean a lot more to me than you may think, with what i am surrounded with constantly every little thing means a lot to me and helps keep me sane, whatever or whoever may read this, that is, so thank you

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IntellectualPikachu @intellpikachu.bsky.social · 24/04/2026

even if people say im welcomed, with everyone surrounding me i feel so isolated and unlike everyone else here, and i just, sadly, feel uncomfortable with a lot of people, and i cant do anything, and it sucks, because i honestly rely so much on having other people to feel like i matter (2/2)

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IntellectualPikachu @intellpikachu.bsky.social · 24/04/2026

3 month streak of not posting here over i guess i often post things publicly when i just want to feel like i am seen when i feel like i cant do anything anywhere else, but i am so limited here, i cant talk in depth about any of this at all, and i dont feel as if i belong with anyone (1/2)

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IntellectualPikachu @intellpikachu.bsky.social · 18/01/2026

i cant tell if its just a me thing how long certain people linger in my mind even after they separate from me i try to shake feelings off but i dont know honestly

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IntellectualPikachu @intellpikachu.bsky.social · 11/01/2026

and another note.. i'm unsure if i'm in some way being a bad person by feeling offput so easily by certain things, easily getting jealous, extremely easily feeling left out, one small thing can make me really uncomfortable due to past stuff i've gone through, so it leaves me confused, bleh!! (2/2)

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IntellectualPikachu @intellpikachu.bsky.social · 11/01/2026

I am trying to not think about it or say it much to anyone in general, but i miss a lot of people that have separated from me and it does hurt just trying to force myself to not think about them sometimes, i feel like maybe i wasnt worth as much to some as i thought 😭 (1/2)

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IntellectualPikachu @intellpikachu.bsky.social · 17/12/2025

my days honestly feel a lot emptier way more than expected, i try to hide it but, not having as many people that i used to talk to quite literally every day because they separated from me one way or another really makes it feel more empty i hope they all know atleast they meant a lot to me

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IntellectualPikachu @intellpikachu.bsky.social · 27/11/2025

i am STILL sick and i really hope im not too sick to experience thanksgiving, i dont want to make people sick, best i can do is maybe be a gremlin in a random corner with a box of tissues maybe?? im unsure, but, thank you t anyone that has kept me company at all, ive still felt really lonely

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IntellectualPikachu @intellpikachu.bsky.social · 21/11/2025

i have hated these past two days so much i am losign mroe and more reasons to do literally anything, i feel like everyone is disconnecting from me and i just feel like rotting in a corner at this po int, every thing i look at it makes me sad due to connections with people or something else, idk

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IntellectualPikachu @intellpikachu.bsky.social · 13/11/2025

i dont know if my habit of only looking at bluesky once at the end of the day is good, because it leaves me just feeling bad if theres something that upsets me, today a lot of my feed is filled with things that make me feel left out, or some stuff that makes me feel off, but thats my fault i guess

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IntellectualPikachu @intellpikachu.bsky.social · 08/11/2025

I keep trying to force myself to get into a mindset to where i can start posting again, but i just cant, everytime i try, theres something i see that makes me just, back off again, i want to be active i want to feel involved, i just feel off seeing art of people that i dont feel comfortable with 😓

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IntellectualPikachu @intellpikachu.bsky.social · 07/10/2025

my follower count is just slowly going down as i post nothing, which is my fault i guess, but i genuinely dont feel as if i fit enough to even know what to post, bleh

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IntellectualPikachu @intellpikachu.bsky.social · 01/10/2025

sometimes its easier to pretend to be happy to not bother others sometimes i just get quiet and shut down in a way a lot of the time i do feel lonely, left out, or jealous, but i feel bad for feeling that way in the first place, because i feel bad for annoying or bothering other people with this

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IntellectualPikachu @intellpikachu.bsky.social · 12/09/2025

why am i such a weird person that doesn't fit in with anyone i feel like everything everyone gets excited over i just sit in a corner and observe as i make myself feel left out, why is my brain like this, idk just glad everyone can enjoy their things still atleast i suppose

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IntellectualPikachu @intellpikachu.bsky.social · 12/09/2025

I feel kind of bad and reluctant to post about anything but it just feels a bit overwhelming for me but i feel weird that im like the only person i see that kind of doesn't like mega raichu much really?? the original just feels better and everything its just filling my feed entirely 😭

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IntellectualPikachu @intellpikachu.bsky.social · 05/09/2025

Usually positive things would be a good thing and all but for some reason being extra sensitive is making certain types of positive things make me feel like im not contributing to it enough or feeling left out or something in a way so its having the opposite effect, why must i be like this 😭

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IntellectualPikachu @intellpikachu.bsky.social · 27/08/2025

i swear i am going to go slowly insane, i feel like, just, not fitting in with anyone at all and like i dont fit in any community because of all these people that just, certain things that exist, along with myself just not feeling good overall, bleh

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IntellectualPikachu @intellpikachu.bsky.social · 24/08/2025

I am so confused, i dont post for a while and it makes me worried that its goign to cause people to unfollow but THEN i post something and THEN someone unfollows??? huh?? 😭

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IntellectualPikachu @intellpikachu.bsky.social · 16/08/2025

sleep schedule feels like it indefinitely sucks and i feel like i indefinitely dont matter to anyone and i cant trust anything im told because i feel like no matter what i am let go so easily and without reason, i dont think ill be able to force myself to use bluesky any time soon it feels like 😓

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IntellectualPikachu @intellpikachu.bsky.social · 14/08/2025

and everyone else is just the main friend group, or party group, and im just there, always in the background of every group, not fully involved with them, and i just feel like if i went away and wasnt here that nothing would change for everyone, i feel like i dont exist at all or matter (2/2)

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IntellectualPikachu @intellpikachu.bsky.social · 14/08/2025

Waking up i still feel exactly how i feel in my last post i dont know whats going on, every person i feel like theres something wrong with me or between us, i feel like anyone i talk to or whenever i make posts like im just a background character (1/2)

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IntellectualPikachu @intellpikachu.bsky.social · 13/08/2025

i just odnt feel welcome anywhere and just seeing people i feel off aobut interact with eachother makes me feel off so its making me question if it really would matter if i just vanished from the internet

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IntellectualPikachu @intellpikachu.bsky.social · 13/08/2025

i am goign t osleep now ive been up too long, slepeing in middle of day agian, yippee i dont know how many people read or care about these, but i dont fit in anywhere, like genuinely, every bluesky "friend group" i dont fit in, or have some random issue with someone or something, i hate it, bleh.

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IntellectualPikachu @intellpikachu.bsky.social · 13/08/2025

I dont know if i should dump a lot of thoughts here. i mjust retaining a lot in my mind right nwo and i dont want to just bother peopel wit hthem ,but its hurting just, holding so much, idk what to do i dont care about the typos at this moment 😭

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IntellectualPikachu @intellpikachu.bsky.social · 12/08/2025

The internet is going to kill me, i swear

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IntellectualPikachu @intellpikachu.bsky.social · 08/08/2025

i have slept and yes i am saying when i sleep and wake up for no reason because sure low quality account moment (trademarked) ...now i have to be up all night and hopefully the whole day to try and fix this LOL

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IntellectualPikachu @intellpikachu.bsky.social · 07/08/2025

i shall sleep now maybe i think goodnight goodday, mostly good day to everyone, i am sleeping in the middle of the day, oopsies bed + pikachu hugging time(tm)!! as usual LOL i can barely stay awake no idea why im saying this but yeyeyeyeye

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IntellectualPikachu @intellpikachu.bsky.social · 07/08/2025

but hopefully i can eventually get through it, im unsure, many many things of which some i dont even dare say here, but ill be fine mayhaps, maybe, potentially, perhams, ham, ham, yum yum, i dont know what im typing anymore sue me LOL thankyou for your insightful words of wisdom🔥🔥🔥🔥(3/3)

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IntellectualPikachu @intellpikachu.bsky.social · 07/08/2025

i definitely need to get better for sure with sleep schedules, probably not helping me NOT feel depressed by staying up so much, i type these messages with my head drooping (send help) stacked factors make it hard for me to force myself to sleep sadly (2/3)

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IntellectualPikachu @intellpikachu.bsky.social · 07/08/2025

oh god when you say for more than a decade i cant even REMEMBER THAT FAR BACK i literally have no idea how old you are LOL 😭 its definitely got a lot of complexities, dont think sugar can get me because i literally physically cant just go for it any time LOL (1/3)

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IntellectualPikachu @intellpikachu.bsky.social · 07/08/2025

also that one thing i said ages ago about people probably not interacting/replying to a post BECAUSE they can just dm me or talk to me more often is probably true still because ive honestly done that a lot myself with a couple people, so i cant blame them i suppose, but ive been quiet overall

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IntellectualPikachu @intellpikachu.bsky.social · 07/08/2025

even if they dont want to say that or something there is probably SOMETHING and i cant forget things too myself with specific interactiosn it also sucks some people i cant even talk to directly to discuss said feelings to see if i can fix anything, oh well (2/2)

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IntellectualPikachu @intellpikachu.bsky.social · 07/08/2025

I feel like a lot of the time my replies on some specific people's things get ignored more, sometimes it gets a like sometimes not, but replies are usually dull, i feel like this is my fault for past small interactions ive had which may have made people wary of me, which kinda sucks- (1/2)

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IntellectualPikachu @intellpikachu.bsky.social · 07/08/2025

yes i am spamming your feed hi yes you signed up for this 😭 this is literally the thought dump account (tm)

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IntellectualPikachu @intellpikachu.bsky.social · 07/08/2025

i feel like the nature of this account in specific being related to all these vents and stuff rather than having interesting stuff on it like drawings and such makes people just feel even less comfortable engaging in a way. which, probably.. a lot of my assumptions i come to see are true in a sense

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IntellectualPikachu @intellpikachu.bsky.social · 07/08/2025

on an unrealted ntoe i have been up so many hours and its daytime again my poor slepe schedule can NOT stay consistent and i do not care about my typos this is the low quality account LOL i wonder if i should ramble about more random unrelated things here or not, hmm

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IntellectualPikachu @intellpikachu.bsky.social · 07/08/2025

i dont know why a lot of the messages i post here are secretly maybe directed at certain people, me just asking questions or expressing how i feel indirectly about something... people that do see THESE of course, yes, but its odd, idk if they assume its related to them or not, but. hmm...

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IntellectualPikachu @intellpikachu.bsky.social · 03/08/2025

is the things i post here almost TOO heavy? i genuinely cant tell, i feel like it almost does nothing other than make people more wary of me in a way which does the opposite of help with whatever so oops 😭

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IntellectualPikachu @intellpikachu.bsky.social · 31/07/2025

i still want to force myself to be more active but i dont know why bluesky is consistently kind of making me depressed because of weird or selfish reasons probably, oopsies i dont know what to say or do exactly, to be engaging, my brain is just, mush consistently, wkrejhglkjwehgklw

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IntellectualPikachu @intellpikachu.bsky.social · 24/07/2025

but at the same time, i feel like i'd be the weird one if i just like, walked up to someone and was like "that person you're following and have interacted with may not be the best because this and that..." so 😭 im sensitive enough to this that it even applies to people that are HERE so sdrhjg (2/2)

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