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2 of that uh Absorb!! designs - 5/10 , from what I saw nice but uh yeah... not too interesting . the animations were nice though, combat 2/10 .. no comment it was just . unpleasent community - 2/10 more body dancing :c. overall , 3/10 . uhh I didnt like that one .

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overall 4/10 . not good combat wise but really pretty , good map , and more like a place to hang out

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FAR - 2 Community 5/10 ? wasnt really much, as said I got body danced both times I had fought and got called crazy for hitting first? plus that time it was like a 3v1 sooo idk

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1 of trying transfur games to find one better then kp - Facility Of Redemption designs - 10/10 : THEY WERE SO PEAK?? unique and very pretty:3 Combat 3/10 : confusing, hitboxes were lowkey off and makes for fights that take WAY too long. also both times I fought I got body danced

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why was I freaking out so much CALM DOWN GIRLL IM OKAYIMFINE JESUS CHRIST WHAT WAS I ON 4 HOURS AGO 💔💔💔💔

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I want people to be honest on how they feel about me . if they hate me they should just say it to my face so I dont grow attached and it wont hurt more when they leave

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it never felt like they actually loved me . And . uh. theres just been lots of cases where I thought I was on good terms with someone just to find out they lowkey hated me and I swear it hurts so much more then just saying it to my face

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my ex used to make it really clear when they would lie by putting , after sentances and it'd just make it really clear that they were unhappy about something I said instead of out right saying it and it actually just . really hurt me

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I dont know why I even feel like everyone hates me- I guess its just kind of through past interactions

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and my overreacting ass cant help that everyone thinks the worse of me even my own partner . and no ammount of reassurance is gonna make me feel any different, as much as I want to think differently I just. cant.

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or that im being too little. no gray area. I dont have that many interests and I feel like that makes me seem lame and. uughm I feel like im always saying the wrong stuff

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I guess I can just do what I always do which is watch stuff on the tv untill like 2 am and think about life even if I know its gonna make me feel worse

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im so tired of almost everything man someone put me down 💔💔 its been . an off day I think . idk ive just been kinda . sad all day . uughmmghhdhsh

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- and actually try talking to me?? like he doesnt like being disturbed while watching tv so I couldnt talk to him anyway without him getting mad at me anyways so whats the fucking point!?!?

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and then was justreally dry with me when saying goodnight and itjust makes me feel really bad but like. he also almost never makes an effort to talk with me so I dont even get why he's mad about it . like if you're gonna get mad at me for not talking to you maybe dont sit and watch tv all evening-

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I wish I could actually kill myselfI hate this I . was tired so I took a nap and all dat, I wake up around.. 9 . and thats the time that my dad goes to bed. except when he walks in he's all like ' woww you barely talked to me today , cant wait for you to do it tommorow too '

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I need.. that wagyu plushie......

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im not finding joy it was usually brought me joy anymore fuck everything just seems like- I dont even know. I just seem to have less interest in everything mmngh

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im not okay rn why do I feel like I messed up?? its like and everlasting feeling of dread I cant seem to shake off Id ask him but like- im almost afraid to find the answer. im afraid that I'll end up being right .

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I ended up just watching stuff with pookie ^3^ yyayy! . it feels like im doing something wrong though. I'm not sure what or why but. it feels like I messed up somehow?? mmngh hanging myself oh my lord 💔

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I'll just sleep it off I think I dont reallywanna talk to anyone rn not really

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okay no now I just feel sad now thatim realising stuff fuuuuck ... .

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maybe thats why they stopped talking to me?? if that was im sorry. to them .mmngh maybe I should uh talk less .. just contain myself better and . try not to go off on rants so often mm..

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I dont even know why but they just.. stopped texting me, and it lowkey makes me sad cuz.. they made me really happy and I was. quite close to them :c . I miss them .

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I used to do it.. to one of my best friends but . they stopped talking to me. WE USED TO CALL AND. PLAY GAMES TOGETHER WAA .. they're the one who was with me battling hatred for like 30 mins because we didnt know that we had to use the ghost potion.. .

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and when I mean special yaps I mean stuff I wouldnt talk about in like- posts like these! usually random shit that just comes to mind and sends me into an urge to just talk and talk but- It still stuff I wouldnt talk about to my usual friends

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tho I only do my special yaps to like- one person mostly because they're the only person I really trust . Like I do . have friends, quite a bit of them! but I don't trust them to not think im weird or annoying when I start going off in paragraphs or saying whatever comes to mind

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mmmm I feel like I'm annoying- like I talk too much to people Like I myself dont believe in talking 'too much' , but I know some if not a lot of people do and. I'm afraid I'm hitting that too much :c

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I just got out of the shower and I cant hear the rain anymore FUCK

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ITS RAININGGGG YAY I can play in the rainnm :3

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PERSONALITY !?!?!?! WOAH!! I was she would be dogmatic .. uhhhmmmm.... very proud in everything she does and refuses to admit defeat ( or that she's wrong sigh )

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2. for hair.. Im thinking maybe between all those photos , a short / med hair uma.. colour? maybe a pinkish brown, dark purple??? maybbee, theres a lot of brown hair umas but not enough purple... and pride as always been purple for me ehe .. or hair streaks like heilos has

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NOW hair- this is kinda harder cuz theres so many more possibities since a lot of umas don't have the same haircolor as their horse counterpart but something that rather repersents the horse, like urara having pink hair similar to the horse's pink mask. still not sure tho, But I have ideas...

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I was thinking a purple / black theme when it came to the special racing gear also fancy like mcqueen or Roudolph .. also having a boa cuz of that fluffy thing... or a headband, something like that . stuff like this tho .. and if that headpeice was like- a crown instead

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anyhow, the horse of my choice is Crown Pride!! :D I liked the fluffy thing on his snout he seems to almost always have.. I didn't feel like researching old horses cuz it means also having to check if umamusume had made a uma of that horse.. so doing one thats still racing!!

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we also got uhh wine cooler .. live margarita .. music man ?? wow wow wow ?????? odd horse names ...

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I WAS LOOKING FOR HORSES AND THERES ONE NAMED MERRY CHRISTMAS????

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I shall make a thread here to uh keep notes of.. an umamusume oc.. because I gave up on seven magician .. whoopsies anyhows!

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I'm probably gonna hang out at the park. by myself. play on the swings and wander around unless someone shows up. I don't like going to parks when . people are there . it makes me nervous .

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